I am tired, physically tired, and I don’t concentrate well when I am tired.
That’s not such a big deal when all I am talking about is blogging. When I am working in the ER it is a bit more of a problem. There have been days where I was surprised I managed not to kill anyone make any mistakes.
My poor baby waiting for doctor
My little 3 year old has been coughing for days and started running a high fever today. The last two nights have been spent listening to her cough all night and going to her countless times during the night to comfort her.
Last night my hubby even got kicked out of bed and slept in my daughter’s bed while she crawled in with me and slept coughed all over me all night. Hubby says he is too old to sleep in a bunk bed anymore, even if it is the bottom bunk.
So I have been sitting her for a long time staring at the computer screen and willing myself to write my blog for today. Not because I think the world is going to come to an end if I don’t write for one day. But rather because I have committed to myself that I want to write everyday.
I usually spend a long time writing my posts and when I don’t I am not as happy with my work. I have so many half written posts and so many ideas in my head. And like Paula who wrote today in her blog post Mojo? What Mojo?, my thoughts have all seem to have disappeared as well.
So as I was beating myself up and deciding what to write, I patted myself on the back and said: “Susie, it’s ok if every once in a while you do not have energy. Give yourself a break”. Not that that concept is something new to me. I have learned to do that really well in regards to housework, errands and all kinds of other stuff. (I am sure my husband is nodding his head passionately at that comment. I am thinking he is tired of washing dishes and living in a pigsty mess.)
But until today, I have not let myself do that with my blogging. Maybe I am worried that if I will let my blogging slide if I don’t continue to live up to the standards I have set for myself. I don’t know.
So I hope my giving myself a break and not writing something too deep today is okay with all of you who read my blog. But truly it really is okay every once in a while to admit you are out of energy or inspiration. I am sure that it is nothing sleep (or an extra few hours in a day) won’t remedy. Hopefully, I will get some soon. Heck, it’s only 1 am…….
Have any of you ever just run out of steam?
Image:
WAVES OF ENERGY
Airton Kieling | Flickr Creative Commons
Yes, all the time. In fact I never know where my next post is coming from.
I put a lot of work into my posts. I really think about what I want to say and I can often while away hours tweaking and pruning and trying to think of a better way to describe something or other.
By the time I hit publish I’m spent! I have no idea where I’m going to get the inspiration to write anything else.
But today I’m going to my favourite place in the whole world. Hay-on-Wye. Second hand bookshop capital of Europe. I will come home with my battery full once again.
Hope your little one gets better soon.
I know what you mean. Enjoy your day!
Yep, I ploughed through last year, with my operations, sepsis, complications and life and this year, I am tired, really tired. So much so I am having tests of Tuesday!
Oh yes all the time! In fact I think I run on the last remaining shot of steam. As for blogging, I’m with Gappy, I have a wee panic about my blog posts and frequently run out of things to say or can’t get myself to do it. (note I haven’t written mine for the day yet!)
The day before (as you know) I had a complete fit at myself about whether I should just give up on this self-employment malarky/blogging/writing and get a job at McDonalds or something! I wrote about it in my blog and had some really supportive comments.
It is important to give yourself a break, especially if you are a ‘giving’ person, as you are. Giving people can suffer from compassion burnt out – where they give so much there’s just nothing left anymore.
I think blogging is a form of ‘giving’ for many people – giving of ourselves, and our love and energy and desire to help.
We love you Susie as you are and I enjoy reading your blog and find it inspirational, but you do need to give yourself time to replenish the pot from which you give so generously! Give yourself a break!!